I’ve been with a lot of girls. I don’t think I’ve ever regretted being with any of them, but there are a few that were less than ideal. Just as few were really, really good relationships where I had my heart broken, thinking everything was fine when it really wasn’t. It was typical teenage Jacob mentality. As I got older, I stopped romanticizing every relationship and started thinking with my head. Every new girl pushed an old girl out of my head until I couldn’t remember much about what went on, unless I really thought about it.

I’d say about three-fourths of my guy friends think that I was never really happy with anyone until my current girlfriend. My girlfriend knows how much she means to me, and I can say without a doubt that she is the best girl I have ever been with, but to say I never liked a girl so much I would do almost anything for her BEFORE her would be a lie. I think everyone is guilty of that. If someone asked about your last boyfriend or girlfriend, or your “first love,” it’s typically downplayed. A common response would be, “Yeah, we really liked each other, but it was never going to work out” when, in reality, it was typical puppy love, and at the time, you wouldn’t have traded it for anything. To most of my guy friends, I say it was one-sided, or that we both were “into each other” without really elaborating, or even thinking twice about it. With most girls who ask about my past, and whom I don’t feel comfortable enough sharing with, I minimize it in the same way.

There are very few girls who know about my past in the most honest way I know how to share it. I’ve never been ashamed to talk about it, but unless I know you, it’s always a touchy subject, especially since I’m a pussy and took forever to get over some girls. Truthfully, I would be sad if someone downplayed our relationship when we had a really good one. It makes the experience less meaningful and almost worthless, and I don’t want to do that to someone else.

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