It’s been a week.
I cannot maintain relationships. This has gone from being a notion to being a fact. It is emotionally draining, and I was always end up getting attached to the most unstable girls. “Normal” girls never last because I get bored so easily, but crazy girls are never the ones you want to marry, no matter how many times you’ve talked about it together, or even if you’ve gone as far as buying a ring. It’s a ridiculous waste of time. For me, it’s a chore.
As of today, I only want to concentrate on myself, my family and my sobriety. I know what I have to do to keep everyone happy, and it won’t stress me out, nor will anyone pressure me into doing something they want that I don’t want. Loving should be easy. In another three months, I’ll find some other girl that will be worth two months of my time, and it will be an ongoing cycle until the day I die.
Today I had lunch with an old friend of mine. We passed notes across the table, and things were simple. I miss simplicity. A lot of people, if given the chance, will always make things as difficult as possible. I don’t think it’s intentional. It just happens.
Tomorrow, I’m going to sleep in and lounge around in my pajama pants all day. I need to rest.
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