Drugs. Always about drugs.
Every day has been a battle for me. I’ve had some people who think they know me enough to think I’m a bad person because I was on drugs, despite the fact I’ve been struggling to stay clean. If it were not for a certain girl in my life, I might not care as much. Shouldn’t I do things for myself? Absolutely. But it’s always nice to be able to prove to someone else that you’re stronger than they could imagine.
To the people who only “know” me based on what they’ve read in my blog, I’m a dick. I mean, have you read my shit? I know I’m not a perfect person, but I can admit it. Was I on drugs? Yep. Did I go to rehab to fix myself? Yes, I did, but I didn’t have to. Do you know how many addicts would choose jail instead of rehab? Do you know any addicts period? It’s not fun, and it’s not easy, but people are capable of fixing themselves, and it’s a huge slap in the face to those who dedicate the rest of their life to sobriety. I have never placed the blame on anyone else. I know what I’ve done, and I know I’ve got a lot of flaws, but those who know me know I do my best to prove everyone wrong. I’m not some monster. I’m a fucking human being. I make mistakes just like you make mistakes, but I’m always the last guy to pass any kind of judgment. If you’re the judgmental type, you should be ashamed of yourself.
I know I’m the kind of man my mother wanted me to be, and that’s what matters to me. If you think I’m such a bad person, you obviously don’t know me. I won’t go as far as to say I’m a “good person” (I really fucking hate when people say that), but I don’t have bad intentions with anyone. Ever. That’s not how I was raised. Drugs may have affected the way I was in the past, but I’m not the guy you think I am. I’m sorry things ended up this way, and I guess it was partly my fault. If you have a legitimate reason for disliking me, I’d like to hear it because, otherwise, you don’t have an excuse.
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